Over the last couple of weeks I have been worrying that my depression is lurking just underneath the surface. I have had plenty of self doubt and thoughts that I know I shouldn't be thinking. I am terrified that if this depression rears its ugly head it will be way worse than last time.
It is really hard to explain how it is when the depression takes over fighting the feelings of not being liked, feelings of loneliness and the thoughts that I will be alone for the rest of my life. It is not easy thinking any of these thoughts or having these feelings and not sharing them with anyone. I do my best at trying to keep myself busy so that the thoughts are put away at the back of my head and not in the forefront but the moment I just stop and sit or lay in bed at night they come clamoring to the front on my mind like they are in a race.
So in the meantime I will work at keeping busy and creating a life that I will be happy to live. I know it may seem like I am making this to be just a blip in the road but believe me there is no way this is a blip. It is something that I will probably have to deal with for the rest of my life all I can do is keep working to keep it under control and hopefully it will stop being at the forefront of my mind every time I am alone or in bed getting ready for sleep.
Does anyone having any tips that make it easier to keep the depression at bay?
It is really hard to explain how it is when the depression takes over fighting the feelings of not being liked, feelings of loneliness and the thoughts that I will be alone for the rest of my life. It is not easy thinking any of these thoughts or having these feelings and not sharing them with anyone. I do my best at trying to keep myself busy so that the thoughts are put away at the back of my head and not in the forefront but the moment I just stop and sit or lay in bed at night they come clamoring to the front on my mind like they are in a race.
So in the meantime I will work at keeping busy and creating a life that I will be happy to live. I know it may seem like I am making this to be just a blip in the road but believe me there is no way this is a blip. It is something that I will probably have to deal with for the rest of my life all I can do is keep working to keep it under control and hopefully it will stop being at the forefront of my mind every time I am alone or in bed getting ready for sleep.
Does anyone having any tips that make it easier to keep the depression at bay?
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